Chest pain tears and thoughts of ending it all
I guess thisll be the last time i drop the ball
Its been a long time coming only few were aware
And i thank those who did cause you really showed you care
Im not looking for attention or anything of that sort
For there is no trying if i choose to cut my life short
Ill always be around in your memories and heart
Never let reminiscing become the hard part
I know its not easy but please dont be sad
For i will be free of pain so for me be glad
Im tired of smiling on the outside and acting like things are great
When really on the inside I knew this was my fate
The thoughts never go away they just sometimes lay low
I dont mean to upset you but its my time to go…
Oh where oh where can she be….
I want a girl thats gonna appreciate the sweet dorky things i do to show my love and also to do things to show they love me too rather than just saying it. I want to be able to go out on an amazing no pressure super fun date but yet also be able to have lazy days in just cuddling and watching movies. A girl that will enjoy watching basketball with me even if she doesnt actually love it like i do. I will gladly join her hobbies even if its something im not into at all because as long as im with her and get to see her happy and sporting her gorgeous smile i will feel great and thats all that matters. I want a girl that i can trust and that trusts me. Someone i can come to on my good days and bad. A girl who will proudly hold my hand in public regardless of who’s around. A girl who knows how to have fun but is also smart about things. I don’t need a model or genius or rich girl… I just want a girl that cares about me and shows me that love still exists because our love will be all we need.
